I’m trying to get my thoughts together, to be more coherent. Because sometimes I let myself go and I just write whatever comes to mind, but a true writer has a point, a message they want to get across. But then again, is that true? What is a “true writer” anyway? We all can be writers. Art lives in everything and everyone, and we all create beautiful works of art – even if, and especially when, they’re unintentional. Like the innocent sprawling of shoes on the floor. The layout of someone’s desk, unkempt. The backyard of cherry tomatoes, tangled plants and ripe red spheres looming, and plants growing here and there, a mix of weeds and insects and the Austin summer heat. Fragments of dust, and sand, on the floor, and shadows of the large plants taking in the morning sun. So, what is my point? My point is… This. Life. The feelings circulating within which I have already expanded upon a bit earlier. Today is the beginning. The beginning is always today. Changes are happening right now. Great, big changes that I’m excited about. And really scared about. But this feeling, the anticipation, the unknown, all of that, is exactly what I was preaching – growth mindset, trying new things, not staying comfortable, exploring, aligning myself with what makes me passionate and motivated. I am actually doing it. I wasn’t before. But I begin. Yesterday and the day before that and so on, but most importantly, TODAY. For life is composed of the present – that’s it. We are always in the present and that’s all we’ve got. The past becomes just that; a memory, intangible, for the most part. The future is unknown, a dream, just out of reach. But what we have full access to, in its highest and purest form, is the very present moment, the here and the now. And so it is in this moment, and today, and the here and now, that I live my fullest potential and as I continue doing that, by doing the things I have listed – reading, writing, being present, letting go of things that do me no good,  and always aiming to expand and exercise my mind, nourish my soul, and all that may entail – I am living my life. I’m doing it. I’m bringing a dream to life, by living it.

written july 4th, 2023